
What MERDEKA means to me?
It has and always will be my birthday.... The day the nation celebrate independence, I celebrate a day of being a year errrr..wiser :)
Couple of days ago, mom said we do not understand what "MERDEKA" means, just because I ridiculed the fact she insisted to fly the flag at the balcony. She said, if we had to go through what she had to go through pre-merdeka, we would appreciate it.
As I grow ..eheemm.. wiser..I don't feel we're Merdeka..there's still something missing, a gap somewhere...
My few small years abroad have given me different perspective in life. Racism yeah..it exists everywhere, different cultures and religions. On some bad day people get thrown by bad eggs or stones...so shit happens. After the 9/11 it was even worst, anyone with hijab is a threat to their so called better society.
Despite what's going on, at the work place, there are rights. Rights for all to work in peace and harmony. A right to bicker, to bitch, to shag, to snog...errr..okeh..whatever..
We had 2 somalians who wore hijab at work. The management allowed this as long as it's neat and black in color.
Back in KL, in the industry I am and under the much talk about Islam Hadhari by Pak Lah, all the staffs have to remove their hijab just to earn a living. I know we have options, but sometimes in a country where there isn't much to offer, what choices do these people have?
Merdeka kah aku? Merdeka kah aku for letting this happen? Everyday I ask myself this..merdeka kah negara ini, sedangkan negara yang bukan Islam agama rasminya tapi masih membenarkan pemakaian hijab di tempat kerja.
I know my heart feel for these people, but what can I do? I'm earning a living too..
What do you think? Merdeka kah kita sepenuhnye??
At 32, I don't think I'm MERDEKA yet...
Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...
NOT A DAY OLDER BUT A YEAR WISER
MAY ALLAH BLESS ME WITH MORE GREAT YEARS TO COME
MAY ALLAH BLESS ME WITH HIS RAHMAT DAN NIKMAT
This morning before I left, my mom wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I saw her looking fragile, she hugged me. I asked for her forgiveness, I asked her to halal my makan and minum and I asked for her to wish me well. They say a mother's word is the best ever...
Ya, Allah, kau ampunilah dosa kedua ibu-bapaku, berikanlah mereka kesihatan yang baik, kelak nanti kau letakkan lah mereka dikalangan orang-orang yg mulia disisiMu...
I'm off to Perhentian where I hope to be liberated by the fresh air, clear water and free sun....
See you all in 8 days!!